It’s been a very long 90 days. But it’s finally over.
I started this journey back in January, and to be quite honest, I’m not sure that I wanted it at the time.
There have been a few times along the way that I’ve felt the same way.
Recovery is hard. Especially when it’s intentional.
But there have been numerous people that have walked alongside me in this journey, and for them, I am forever grateful.
And I don’t by any means think that I’m fixed or that I’m all better now.
Recovery is an ongoing process.
But I am and always will be a fighter.
I have learned to not give up on myself.
I have fought hard to get to 90 days of recovery, and I will continue to fight for every day after this.
To those of you that have been there with me throughout this journey, your support means more to me than you will ever know.
I know for a fact that I could not and would not be where I am today without each of you.
To my intern/M1A family, you guys.. Well, I don’t even really have enough words to express the love that I have for each of you. You welcomed me into your family and made me feel like I’ve always been a part of it.
I have made so many wonderful memories in the few months that I have been here and can’t imagine my life any differently.
On the days where I wanted to give up on recovery, whether you knew it or not, you reminded me that it was worth it. That I was worth it.
You have encouraged me every step of the way.
And while there are some of you that may have a bigger role in this process, just know that every single one of you have been appreciated and I can’t express how much you all mean to me.
It was no accident that I showed up here when I did. And honestly, I didn’t expect to be around long. But God had something else in mind.
Thank you all for your love and your friendship. Thank you for seeing me for me.
I look forward to continuing this journey with you.
To my best friend, I honestly can’t imagine my life without you in it. We have had our moments where we let emotions get in the way of being good friends to each other, but I’m so glad that we have fought through what we have. You get me more than anyone else and have always supported me in everything that I’ve done. I love you to the moon. Thank you for loving me regardless. Thank you for seeing me for me.
To everyone else that has played a role in this, I love you more than my words could ever express. Your kind words have never gone unappreciated and neither has your friendship. You are all such beautiful people and I’m so lucky to have all of you.
To my Creator, I am continually humbled by the opportunities that you have put in front of me this past semester. I know that self harm is something that you never wanted for my life, but it is something that has been a part of me for a long time. And there have been many times that I’ve wondered why the things that I’ve gone through have happened, and I’m sure that I’ll never have a solid answer. But I know the things that you have done through me as a result. You have given me a heart for broken and the courage to shed light on issues that people don’t know how to talk about. Thank you for blessing me with more than I could have ever hoped for or dreamed of. Thank you for loving me where I’m at. Thank you for pursuing me when I needed it the most. And thank you for putting all of these wonderful people in my life.
This has been a tiresome journey, and it will never truly be over.
But I am in a better place than I was 90 days ago.
I am a better person than I was 90 days ago.
This has been the hardest mountain to climb, but what a beautiful view to have now.
Today I insert a big semicolon to my story.
This is just the beginning. My story is far from being over.
Thank you for the company along the way.
A new chapter starts today.
I hope you all will join me..