Guest Post: Getting Lost.

Today you guys are in for a special treat.

On top of having my first ever guest post, this one is coming from someone near and dear to my heart.
This girl means the world to me and I am so proud of the woman she is becoming.

It’s hard when you lose yourself. It’s even harder finding yourself again.
I’m so thankful for God’s grace. And I know Jess is too.

If you want to keep up with her, you can check out her blog over at capnjessss.wordpress.com

Getting Lost.

Have you ever lost yourself? I don’t mean when your mom lets go of your hand in Walmart and you wandered off kind of lost. I mean when you listen to a song, or are reading a book, or playing an instrument. I’m talking about the kind of getting lost where you find yourself, or a part of you, that you never knew was there. In those moments you realize just how precious life is. Those moments in life are something to cherish. You can find yourself in those moments, find out things about you that you never knew you had.

But also, those moments that you cherish the most, scare you the most. I know the first time that I lost myself in music or a book I was terrified because, losing myself in a song was a wake up call of me. It had shown me where I was, were I had been, and where I could be in life. I had seen where I use to be: happy, funny, full of life. I saw where I was: falling into depression, unhappy with myself, and slowing getting out of God’s reach. But then I could see where I was going: getting happy again, funny, full of life, and ready to take the world on with a new attitude. The song that pulled me out of my darkest time in my life was “Through All Of It” by Colton Dixon. I’m grateful to be going back to were I was. Its been a journey but Ive come a long way. Next time you have a bad day, lose yourself in a song, a book, or the sound of the rain.

Hope Will Rise.

After getting off the phone with a close friend of mine, these words are all that are in my head.

He told me that he was on his way to a friend’s house that he was worried was suicidal and asked me to pray.

I am so thankful for the place I am in my life right now. I’m thankful that I can be a source of hope to people. That in the moments where people are unsure of how to approach a delicate situation, I can provide some kind of help.

I know that self harm and suicide are things that God never intended for my life. But I can’t change that they are. And if these are the ways that I am now able to spread His love and mercy, then sign me up.

Hope will rise. But you have to be here to see it. He will heal your heart. You are more than these moments and you are more than your past.

Please keep my friend Tim, and his friend in your prayers tonight.

Much love to you tonight.

My Feet May Fail; He Will Not.

One of my favorite worship songs is Oceans by Hillsong. I’m sure you’ve all heard it by now. Some of you may have heard it more than you would have liked. And I’ll admit, it has been overplayed. But that doesn’t take away from the profoundness of it’s lyrics.

And if you find yourself in a place where your faith is being tested, then I’m sure this song really resonates with you.

You call me out upon the water. The great unknown, where feet may fail.

In this season of my life, I find myself with some pretty awesome opportunities, but to say that they aren’t terrifying at the same time would be a lie.

This is where my faith in Him is being tested.

How much do I trust Him?
How far out of my comfort zone am I willing to go?

I may very well fail.

And that’s exactly what will happen if I trust in my plan and not His.

You’ve never failed, and You won’t start now.

He has never once failed me.

So why then, am I letting my fear control me?
Because I’m human.
And I can’t see past my shortcomings to see what He has planned for me.

I know that He is for me and will work things for my good.

So then why is it so hard to trust?

Because I want to desperately prove that I’m good enough to do it on my own. That I don’t need help.
And I’m almost positive that I’m not the only one that has thought that way.

How far are we willing to take our selfish pride and arrogance?

It’s not easy to let go and to let Him take control.
To take us into the great unknown.

I’m entering into a season of the unknown.
And it would be easier to just not go.
But He didn’t call me to not go. He called me to go.

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me.

My prayer for not only myself, but for anyone else finding themselves in a season of the unknown, is that we would let go of our arrogance and allow Him to call us where He wants us.

That definitely isn’t easy.

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.

That is the ultimate answer to that prayer.

That He would take us deeper so that despite the uncomfortableness, we are so enthralled with being in His presence, we no longer notice the discomfort.

He has called us to great things.
And the good news is, He doesn’t call the qualified. He qualifies the called.

We may fail.
We will fail.

But He will not.

I hope that if you find yourself in a season of change, that you would allow Him to direct your path. He has great things for you.

Let Him take you deeper.

What Will You Do?

I’ve presented a very broad question for you to ponder on. What will you do? Well that answer is as broad as the question. So let me narrow it down some.

As 2015 is off to a fresh start, what will you do with the pages of your story? Will you continue to write in them eagerly? Or will you just allow the monotony take over and coast right on through like you have in years past?

I hope that you don’t settle for the latter.

This is a fresh start. I hear so many people long for one. Well here it is! What are you going to do with it?

And trust me, I’m preaching to myself just as much. I’ve wasted my fair share of time on the monotonous. But something in me, in all of us, longs for change.

So what will I do?
I will continue to write my story with the same enthusiasm that I once had.
I will welcome that light back.

Life is far too short to spending looking backwards.
The view is much prettier facing forward.

I hope that you take the time to discover the incredible strength and purpose you have inside of you.

Your story is far from being finished.
If you’re unsure on this chapter, don’t be afraid to reach out.
I’d love to help co author some pages with you.